Luci Wormell – Mama Makes Her Mark

Luci Wormell – Mama Makes Her Mark

Luci Wormell – Mama Makes Her Mark 150 150 The Commit Campaign

The Commit Campaign is proud to have partnered with so many inspiring mothers for the Mama’s Make Their Mark project. Parenthood is an incredibly difficult yet rewarding journey. We want to honor that journey and raise awareness about a mother’s mental health through these series of pictures and blog post.

Below is Luci Wormel’s extended pledge.

It’s really hard to convey all of my thoughts in a snippet of a post so bear with me.

I do not have PPD. I have depression. This came way before having my kids (for about six years). I’ve dealt with it alone; my family and friends had no idea I was depressed. My excuses for having an emotional day were: it was a bad day, I’m tired, I’m hungry, etc. I didn’t have a support system to turn to because I never told anyone I was depressed. I was scared of what people would think. I was scared of being called “crazy,” “weird,” “a wreck,” or whatever labels one would put on a person with mental illness. Without a healthy support system, my only way of coping was to become dependent on things that were toxic.-

Everyone’s depression is different. Therefore, I cannot speak for anyone but myself. For me, the hardest time of the day was nighttime — that’s when I would have these voices inside my head telling me things like: you’re not happy, you’re inadequate, you don’t matter, life would be better if you were dead, you mean nothing. Brutal things that I would never ever say to anyone; but I said them to myself. I believed them, enough for me to make suicidal plans, and enough for me to make an attempt. The funny thing is, I had so much going on in my life. It wasn’t perfect by any means, but it was more than great. Unfortunately none of that mattered enough. –

The reason why I decided to get professional help was because I am now a mom of two. My babies are my reason to look at life in a different perspective. I want to be there when they start kindergarten, I want to see them graduate high school, go to college, get married, and be the best humans they possibly could be. Most importantly, I want them to grow up with a mom. –

Motherhood is HARD. There are days when I feel defeated. There are days when I would have more than one 44oz Dr.Pepper. There are days when I stress eat a whole box of cookies. There are days when I look like a complete zombie from lack of sleep.

Then there are days when my son comes up to me and gives me the sweetest hug. There are days when my daughter gives me the biggest cheesiest smile and scrunches up her little button nose. There are days when we play chase around the house. We make believe. We laugh. We draw things. We sing songs. We go to Target for no reason at all. Or we meet up with our little friends and have some fun. These days trump all the bad days. –

This is what motherhood is all about. I would be missing out on all of these days (good and bad) if I didn’t fight my depression. If I hadn’t gotten help when I did, I don’t think I would be here right now, sharing with you my story. –

Don’t be afraid to tell someone you have depression, or any other mental illness. Or if you think something is wrong, talk to someone right away. Life’s not meant to be perfect. We were not meant to be perfect. Humans erred. And guess what? We’re humans. –

“Mental illness is not a personal failure.”
It’s okay to not be okay.
This does not make you less of a person.
This picture is my pledge. I commit to sharing my experience of my own mental health struggles in hopes to help other moms. –

The Commit Campaign is a photo-based movement breaking the stigma associated with mental health and mental illness to ultimately reduce the nation’s suicide rate. It is a non-profit led by my friend, Kelsey Oney who is a survivor of suicide loss. –

To read stories from other women and moms about their experiences with mental health and mental illness, search for #CommitCampaign.”

Visit Luci’s blog and follow along her Instagram for more inspiring and stigma breaking posts!

Pictures: Amaes Photography

If you or someone you know is in need of postpartum support you can call this number: 1-800-944-4PPD (4773 ). English and Spanish lines are available.

The National Suicide Prevention Lifeline: 1-800-273-8255

If you want to share your story you can visit the ‘Share your Story‘ section under our Blog tab on our website.  By giving your testimony you can help to create a larger network of those that have experienced mental health issues, mental illness or suicide loss.